Saturday, January 28, 2012

What I pray for


Would I change him? I would and do provide him with the things that help him in this life, such as the medications that manage his seizures. I don't want him to suffer, but I have very limited control over that for anyone. I can only do what I can do.

I try new techniques to help him express himself and communicate. I advocate for services and connect with people who have something to teach and share that might help me be the parent he needs me to be.

I may be wrong, I have been often, but my philosophy is that he came into the earth with a mission. I was raised by parents who embraced the Edgar Cayce readings, and so my mind is of the persuasion that every soul is eternal and here with a purpose.

So, no, I'd have to say that changing Daniel is not something I fantasize about or wish for. My prayer for him is that he be surrounded by and experience happiness and love, contentment and joy. This morning we both seemed to be hitting the mark.

2 comments:

Phil Dzialo said...

There is nothing that I could add; you have said it all and you have said it with profound insight and belief. Your path is true, and the road is right. You are fortunate to have the insight which is so often absent in our world...

Carolyn said...

I don't know how much insight I have, Phil. Most of the time I'm fumbling around. I question myself, my beliefs, my purpose. The only thing I don't question is the love that I feel for Daniel, my family, and the friends who make life what it is.

Thanks, though! Friends like you keep me going.